The Complexity of Reunions

It has been a week since I arrived back in the States from China. This was the third time I saw my biological family. This was the first time I traveled alone to see my family. A full 24 hours of traveling to arrive at the village. The duration is long yet every time it…

Moses’s Story from The Book of Exodus: One Transracial Adoptee’s Perspective [Copy and Pasted from Another Blog]

*********This is my original blog post but chosen to initially share and give “ownership” to the nonprofit “C.W.O.” in California. (Please comment or direct contact me for the original upload link) – Catherine (Qiaofei)******* —————————————————- “Moses and the book of Exodus are a very well-known story within the Bible to those both who are and…

The Never Discussed Feelings of Being an Adoptee FWD:_______

The past year has been a different and reality of adoption and being an adoptee that I have repressed so many years, had no words to express, and so much between. I have worked so hard to capture God’s glory in reunion that I thought would only be nearly impossible. But despite a reunion, in…

8 Years Ago Today (July 10, 2013)

8 years ago today I returned to this village. 马达(Mada) 8 years ago I captured this photo. A young girl playing. A woman seated on a bike. What if that could have been me. 8 years ago I only knew the unknowns. The what if’s. The imaginations, the fantasy’s, the nightmares, the fears, the dreams….

It Doesn’t Go Away

Jan 23, 2021 2020 was quite a year. 2020 has amplified a lot of brokenness, imperfection, hurt within our world, our country, our state, within our communities, in families. 2020 has also magnified peoples’ desire for change, seeking healing, acknowledging injustice, and addressing issues that have only been silenced. 2020, as a Chinese Transracial International…

Summer 2019: “O Come to the Altar”

28 August 2019 A little over one year ago, I experienced the most surreal God willing opportunity to reunite with my birth family. An experience I shared in prior blog posts. (And another reunion this past January 2019!) There has been much closure and joy in the past 12+ months, but there has also been…

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Dear Your Future Self, In 2-3 weeks time, you will have answers. Answers that give you joy, answers that may bring relief, answers that leave you with a thousand emotions no words could express, answers that will change your perspective forever. Your answers may be filled, only to have 1,000 more questions. The answers may…

His Perfect Timing

Today is 18 May 2018 (7:56). 41st week since my return from China (August 2017). I have anticipated this day for a long time. Graduation and walking across the stage. I am excited. This morning at 4:30 I woke up. I decided to check the DNA results. Waiting for the DNA results on WeGene DNA…

My Name is _____________. D.O.B.: ____

Besides finding my family in China, there are two small but significant facts which I have pondered greatly on. Two facts which give me JOY. My name and my birthday. Two simple facts. My family gave me a name. Wang Qiaofei. (王巧菲) 10 days after I was born my name was lost. My identity was…

You are Wanted, You are Worthy, You are Loved

A few months ago, I wrote a private post to myself. The title was, “You are Unwanted, You are Unworthy, You are Unloved”. I think the world does a really good job of portraying that message to all of us at some time in our lives. The feeling of being unwanted, unworthy, and unloved is…