The Complexity of Reunions

It has been a week since I arrived back in the States from China. This was the third time I saw my biological family. This was the first time I traveled alone to see my family. A full 24 hours of traveling to arrive at the village. The duration is long yet every time it…

It Doesn’t Go Away

Jan 23, 2021 2020 was quite a year. 2020 has amplified a lot of brokenness, imperfection, hurt within our world, our country, our state, within our communities, in families. 2020 has also magnified peoples’ desire for change, seeking healing, acknowledging injustice, and addressing issues that have only been silenced. 2020, as a Chinese Transracial International…

Summer 2019: “O Come to the Altar”

28 August 2019 A little over one year ago, I experienced the most surreal God willing opportunity to reunite with my birth family. An experience I shared in prior blog posts. (And another reunion this past January 2019!) There has been much closure and joy in the past 12+ months, but there has also been…

The Journey Begins

Welcome to my blog. My story. This is my journey discovering my roots, my culture, my identity, and my family. Nearly 23 years later, all lost but now found, because of my Heavenly father. He heard my many years of cries and prayers. Welcome to my journey back home, in a land where I lost…

The Unknown Become Known

Pause and imagine: growing up in a country 7,000+ miles away from “Home”. Imagine growing up with people in a different country. Imagine growing up with a family who doesn’t look like you, your mother doesn’t have the same color hair or eyes, the town you live in has no one who looks like you,…

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Dear Your Future Self, In 2-3 weeks time, you will have answers. Answers that give you joy, answers that may bring relief, answers that leave you with a thousand emotions no words could express, answers that will change your perspective forever. Your answers may be filled, only to have 1,000 more questions. The answers may…

His Perfect Timing

Today is 18 May 2018 (7:56). 41st week since my return from China (August 2017). I have anticipated this day for a long time. Graduation and walking across the stage. I am excited. This morning at 4:30 I woke up. I decided to check the DNA results. Waiting for the DNA results on WeGene DNA…

My Name is _____________. D.O.B.: ____

Besides finding my family in China, there are two small but significant facts which I have pondered greatly on. Two facts which give me JOY. My name and my birthday. Two simple facts. My family gave me a name. Wang Qiao Fei. (王巧菲) 10 days after I was born my name was lost. My identity…

I Know the Answer

The past few weeks I had been continually reminded and in complete awe of Jesus’s PERFECT timing. 8 months ago, if someone walked up to me and told me my family would contact me, and I would be reuniting this summer I would both laugh and recognize deep sadness. The odds and statistics in finding…

You are Wanted, You are Worthy, You are Loved

A few months ago, I wrote a private post to myself. The title was, “You are Unwanted, You are Unworthy, You are Unloved”. I think the world does a really good job of portraying that message to all of us at some time in our lives. The feeling of being unwanted, unworthy, and unloved is…